cydniey's podcast

Apropos of nothing

"You have a lot of pictures of yourself"
Ya, well, it’s an obsession
"Do you ever wonder how many vacation photos you end up on?"
No, though it would explain random bad mojo in my life
"How does it feel to be the most photographed person in the immediate area?"
Pretty fucking empty

Chip said last night at the bar that one person telling us we're great is nice, but what we need (us performers) is 5,000 of them

And last night I agreed
And mostly I still do . . .

Except sometimes when I think about people
And realize there are "ones" who make it seem like 5,000
You know what I mean?
Some people have this thing that makes their attention and praise seem like it's from the masses, it carries that much weight with you
You believe what they tell you,
They are that convincing in their sincerity

And when that runs out, it still feels like 5,000 people
All of them turning their backs
And you get hurt and then angry and if you are smart,
You go on,
If only to prove that one wrong
Prove that you can do it

Whatever it is
And sometimes you are rewarded with the 5,000 for that effort.

And sometimes,
Even after all that,
You still miss the one.

hi, no intro for this one. i didn't want to re-record it because i love this recording. and i didn't feel like adding an intro. yes, i got lazy like that.

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