cydniey's podcast

Who is molly?

we met ten years ago.
a small college that would have preferred we hadn't.
we chased away our roommates.
through little fault of our own.
we threw parties.
we spun myths.
her family took me in when mine let me down.
she waited patiently while I punished myself.
for years she watched and didn't judge.
or nag
or question, unless someone was bleeding.
we never fought.
she borrowed my clothes.
and let me borrow hers, even though I was fat.
she traveled in similar circles years after I'd left them.
she found new value in old friends.
she gave the benefit of a doubt.
she broke down her own walls.
she did everything herself.
everything she put her mind to.
I asked myself repeatedly,
"What would Molly do right now?"
we've been called lovers
we've been called sisters
we've been called devils
and we are none of these things
what we are cannot be said.
or analyzed.
we are unconditional.
we are unrelenting.
we are unstoppable.
and together, we are super heroes.

there was the night that we asked the bouncer at metropol if we could punch a guy for touching us.
he said "sure"

there was the time we told our fellow students we drove my mom's microbus to the bahamas.
we made the argument that vw's are airtight.

there was the time that guy thought we ganged up on him and totally freaked out.
okay, that has happened a few times.

we are never boring.
we are catalysts.
we are triggers and buttons.
events follow us like a wake.
or like the crowd after a parade.
bewildered and awed, following blindly for a few more minutes to prolong the feeling.
molly is one half of that.

she is the only person I could share all I have with.
she likes cheesy 80's music.
she is an artist and designer.
she loves her family.
and is close to them.
she is good with finances.
in fact, she has all of the practicality I lack.
she makes me want to behave.
she makes it easy to maintain my balance.
she's just some chick who can see through most bullshit
she's my best friend
her bravery is not a front
and she's never rude to those she doesn't like.
she just won't bother.

from my book "stop poking me lady", available at lulu.com fir download or book purchase. i recommend the download, cheap and convenient and much harder to spill coffee on.